Have some fun?

Can you go out and have fun while your very sick child is home? Everyone wants us to have some normalcy. Go out to dinner, go see a movie, we'll stay with Aidan. Why in the world would anyone say that? "Normalcy" is now gone. For how long I have no idea but gone it is. The nurses in the hospital and the social worker-try and keep as much normalcy as possible. Yeah my kid is hooked up to two different IV lines, one with fluids to keep him alive and the other with poison to kill the evil "C" word. He is peeing every 45 minutes and stayed on the toilet all day yesterday. We have zero privacy and they're taking blood or blood pressure every day all day. Yeah I'll have some normal now. I have to flush two lines everyday at home to prevent disaster and he isn't allowed to visit with anyone who has been near what even resembles a germ. Well it's December so that pretty much eliminates everyone. I have started experiencing unexplainable stiffness in my neck and joints. Stress is eating my stomach alive and when the lights go out at night, the dark, evil thoughts begin. Yeah, I'll try to act normal.